When I wrote out my challenges for the month of January I thought it was going to be a normal month. As it turns out it has been one disaster after another. Some small, some large. To recap in January, we got into a car accident (not my fault) putting a small dent into our hood. Our new car broke down on the drive home so we had to stay outside of Davenport, IA and I was almost late for work (I went in with only one hour sleep). Mrs. ROB got the flu and then pneumonia; Mrs. ROB proceeded to give me pneumonia. I received a lot of our tax documents and calculated that we are going to owe a huge tax bill. I tried to get our new car fixed because Mrs. ROB purchased some added warranty coverage to the car, but the dealer said that our coverage didn’t cover it. Basically, money wasted down the drain. On the way back from the dealer Mrs. ROB fell down the stairs, broke her ankle, and had to have surgery. Our toilet upstairs is on the fritz and I have to install a new one (it was old anyway). We have been hit by two major snowstorms which has caused classes to be cancelled and me to fall behind on work, particularly because i was at the hospital every day for at least six to seven hours.
Mrs. ROB is home now, but still has months of recovery and I basically have to hold the household down, continue to work, make sure that I meet my student and research obligations, and try to find some time to do some writing. Something will have to give and I am not sure what yet.
Before this I had three goals:
1) Lose three pounds–mission accomplished. Although I didn’t get to the gym much because of illness and visiting the hospital I didn’t eat as much (which is part of my problem) and I lost my goal weight.
2) Put $500 aside–mission fail. I had to spend that money on getting Mrs. ROB some items for when her surgery was over and also for a new toilet.
3) Write 5 pages on a new research project–mission fail. I didn’t even start this project. Considering that Mrs. ROB was in the hospital I think I get a pass for this one.
Despite the fact that January was horrible I still want to put forward some goals for the month:
1) Make sure Mrs. ROB continues to get stronger, healthier as she recovers from surgery.
2) Continue to lose weight…three pounds is a good goal.
3) Set aside $1000 for anticipated expenses. As I mentioned we face a major tax bill and I need to save as much money as I can so that I can pay everything.
4) Try to begin this new research project or find something to replace it. The primary reason I am doing this so I can go to a conference in November. It will be a chance to go to the conference, but also visit my brother, sister-in-law, and my nephew.
5) Begin reviewing chapters for this edited book that a colleague and I have planned. The chapters are not due until February 15th, but I want to get to them as quickly as possible.
6) Begin to get back to normalcy. I admit I kind of miss my routine. I know that it will be a bit abnormal for a while, but I need to get into a groove of some kind or I am going to go bonkers.
Maybe I am just stressing myself out too much. I don’t have to do all of these things, but I feel almost compelled too. One of my problems is that I don’t know how to slow down. I don’t know how to relax. I have been going a mile a minute for so long and put so much pressure on myself to fix this and that and this and that. It is getting to me. I can feel it. And I don’t like it and I don’t like myself for it.
I sure hope February is better than January.